Anger is a very heady feeling.
Being furiously angry is interesting. For one thing, you feel like you could commit any crime and get away with it and be an agent of JUSTICE - kinda like Batman. On the other hand, the situation that you are dealing with is so full of injustice that you want to burst into angry tears and break something. Either one results in violence of some sort.
It's a good thing that the anger I felt today was directed at people who were not within reaching distance.
I went outside and sat in the sun for a while. Someone came out and asked if I was taking a smoke break - I do not smoke. But I let them think that I do. When you're furiously angry, you don't care what people think of you.
Some people would say that acting upon furious anger is the best way to deal with a situation because you don't skirt around the subject at hand - you don't try to butter the person up - you merely SAY WHAT YOU THINK AND TO HECK WITH IT.
Unfortunately, my parents taught me not to act upon anger.
So, instead of saying things I would've regretted once my anger wore off, I thought about New Orleans. I thought about my tiny problem and the juvenile-minded people with whom I was angry - and then I compared it to the problems facing the poor people of New Orleans. I thought about people I met here whom I will dearly miss. I thought about mothers who scrape for a living and families who are scrambling to find housing.
What the heck am I mad about? My problems are nothing compared to theirs. I have a home. I am attending a very good school. I have the Internet as a readily available resource. I attended very good public schools (shout out to Person County Schools). I have goals and a bright future ahead of me. My mom and dad are close and keep in touch. I have the support of my wonderful community of Roxboro.
Honestly, Abigail.
So, I'm going to end this week with my usual cheerful smile - I will laugh at jokes - I will make horrible puns - I will genuinely enjoy my day at work - I will be sad when I leave New Orleans.
I truly love this city, and I am an ungrateful wretch for indulging in one moment of anger over petty people when others here worry about having a roof over their heads or food to put in their mouths.